Against Her Will Epilogue


During the editing process of my recent story, my editor suggested that I cut the last chapter of the manuscript. She reasoned that the pace had slowed way down in my draft and would need heavy edits to get it back on track. The project was already behind schedule and I was eager to get her final edits back so I agreed. I published the story without the last chapter that I had originally intended.

In the Amazon reviews, several readers expressed their disappointment with the ending, saying that it was far too abrupt. I can’t say I disagree, since I did write that chapter to address the future of our dear couple. Now I’m kicking myself for making the decision to cut it. This has been a hard lesson for me; I should always go with my first instincts.

Please understand that I am not blaming my editor. She has done an amazing job on my stories and turned them into better stories. I was the one to make the decision so the full blame rests with me.

But the book is out there now. I could revise the manuscript and reload it but that would not help the readers who have already purchased the book. I have decided to post it here instead. This chapter has not been professionally edited but I hope it improves the opinion of the readers who hated the way the book ended.

Please let me know if I have redeemed myself.


Jane Austen Quote: “But the wife of Mr. Darcy must have extraordinary sources of happiness necessarily attached to her situation that she could, upon the whole, have no cause to repine.” (Pride and Prejudice, Chapter 61)

Wednesday, 22 April, 1812

Darcy cursed under his breath as his carriage slogged through the mud. He and his wife were on the road to Hertfordshire, on an errand for his father-in-law; to bring Jane Bennet home to Longbourn. Charles Bingley had appeared in Darcy’s study on Monday evening bearing a letter from Mr. Bennet. He had agreed to allow Charles to court his daughter under one condition: Jane was to be returned to his care as soon as Darcy could make the arrangements.

Little more than having Jane’s trunk packed was needed to prepare for the short journey, however, a violent storm had prevented them from travelling on Tuesday. Even though Jane had only just moved in on Sunday, the ladies of the house were cast into gloom at the prospect of her sudden and unjustified departure. The joy of her imminent courtship had been forgotten, surpassed by the cruel edict that would sever their newfound sisterhood. Darcy had attempted to soothe their concerns by explaining that Mr. Bennet would naturally wish to have his daughter under his own roof if she was to receive a gentleman’s attentions. Unfortunately, this line of reasoning met with no success.

He had appealed to Mrs. Annesley, Georgiana’s trustworthy companion, hoping that she would offer her sage guidance; however, she too had been separated from her sister in her younger days. All she could manage was to dab her eyes and whisper, “All will be well.” The ladies had spent the rainy day sharing stories of their girlhood, which one would think balm for their wounded spirits but only served to sink them even lower.

To help ease the pain of their pending separation, Darcy had suggested that he and Elizabeth stay a few days at Longbourn. Despite this agreeable possibility, the ladies all retired to Elizabeth’s chambers, forcing him to spend the night without his bride.

Since the rain had persisted throughout the night, Darcy knew the roads would be in deplorable condition that day; their journey was sure to be prolonged. Nonetheless, he refused to delay their departure any longer, coaxed the ladies to ready themselves for travel and they set out shortly after breakfast.

Knowing that the addition of two extra guests would strain Mr. Bennet’s limited staff, he had a small contingent of his own staff follow behind in a second carriage; his valet, a maid to tend to Elizabeth, a kitchen maid, and two grooms. Within minutes of leaving the paved streets of London, Elizabeth’s and Jane’s melancholy were nothing compared to Darcy’s cantankerous mood. With the roads mired in muck, their progress was irritatingly slow. The second carriage trudged through the slog in good form but his beloved bays lagged behind at a snail’s pace. The wheels became bogged down twice and they were forced to wait while the grooms and drivers extricated the vehicle from the sludge. He scowled and grumbled in exasperation. The fear that they may become stuck again gnawed on Darcy’s last nerve.

The ladies paid little heed to his outbursts. “You may well imagine, Lizzy, that Mama will want you to take Kitty or Lydia back with you to London,” Jane said.

“Oh dear,” Elizabeth said, a crease forming in her brow. “I am sure you are right but I would much rather not; Kitty is so silly and Lydia is far too wild.”

Jane nodded her head with a beleaguered sigh. “Kitty is rather impressionable,” she said. “She would do better under your care, away from Lydia’s influence.”

Darcy agreed that, of the two girls, Kitty would cause Elizabeth the least trouble. “She would look up to you and Georgiana,” he said. “However, we need not make a decision now. Let us see how they both behave and then decide.”

The two hour trip had taken twice that time and they arrived at Longbourn hungry and irritable. “There is my dear Jane,” Mrs. Bennet said as the party entered the drawing room. Beaming with delight, she rushed to embrace her eldest daughter. “Did I not say that Mr. Bingley would come up to scratch?”

Despite his relief to be out of the mud, Darcy doubted that their stay at Longbourn would be any less wearisome. His wife’s discontent, his father-in-law’s disfavour, his mother-in-law’s unrestrained glee and his new rowdy sisters were sure to try his patience.

Thursday, 23 April, 1812

By Thursday evening, Darcy had come to an agreement with Mr. Bennet and Elizabeth; Kitty would come to live with the Darcys. For the past two days, Lydia’s behaviour had been nothing but shameful; she whined and pouted, she ignored all attempts to bring her to order and was altogether unmanageable. Darcy had never known a more thoughtless, vain and temperamental creature than she. If Kitty was ever to make a successful match, she must be separated from her younger sister.

The news was received with jubilation by Mrs. Bennet and Kitty; Lydia, however, raised a rumpus. “Why should I not go, too?” she said, stomping her foot. “I have just as much right as Kitty. What shall I do all summer if I do not go to London?”

“You will go to Bath with the family; at Mr. Darcy’s expense, I might add,” her father said. Darcy was relieved that, after spending some time in his father-in-law’s company, his disapproval had lessened to some degree.

Lydia rolled her eyes. “How dreadfully dull. I should die of boredom.”

Elizabeth narrowed her eyes at her unruly sister. “If you continue in this manner, Lydia, I will never invite you,” she said in a harsh tone. “I am embarrassed that you have become such a hoyden.”

“Just because you have a rich husband, Lizzy, you have no call to insult me,” Lydia said with a rebellious sniff.

Darcy had heard enough. “Miss Lydia Bennet,” he said in a commanding tone. “You will apologize for plaguing your parents with such impropriety. No woman of quality would conduct herself in such a deplorable manner.”

“I will not!” she said, her chin jutting out in defiance.

Since Darcy’s withering glare had no effect on her, he tried another tactic. “As you wish,” he said, as if accepting defeat, then turned to his father-in-law. “Mr. Bennet, there is a school just north of Derbyshire where young ladies who are in need of certain… refinements are accepted,” he said, using a quick wink as a signal to the older man who then nodded his head.

“I have heard of such establishments,” Mr Bennet said, a twinkle flashing in his eye for a scant second. “Perhaps Lydia might benefit from a year or two of instruction,” he said with a grave mien.

Lydia shrieked. “Two years!”

Darcy paid no heed to her protests. “With your permission, I would be happy to sponsor her.”

“She is a difficult student,” Mr. Bennet said, while his wife gaped in disbelief.

Darcy nodded and leaned in closer. “I believe that is their specialty,” he said, whispering loud enough for everyone to hear.

“No Papa, you would not send me away,” Lydia cried.

Mr. Bennet turned his head to hide his amusement. “I know not what else can be done with her. She never listens to me.”

Although Darcy was enjoying the charade, he kept a solemn expression for his new sister’s benefit. “Well then, are we decided?” he inquired.

Lydia clutched her father’s arm. “No Papa, I beg you, please don’t send me away,” she said in a state of panic. “I apologize for troubling you. I promise to be good.” Darcy had to admit, she did appear contrite in her attempt to sway Mr. Bennet’s decision.

“You will go to Bath with the family,” her father said.

“Yes, yes!” she said in earnest.

Mr. Bennet’s countenance remained severe. “You will not complain.”

“Not even once.”

The room fell silent while Mr. Bennet took a moment to consider this appeal; all eyes were fixed on him. “If you give me the least cause to regret my decision, I will send word to Mr. Darcy.” Lydia responded with a curtsy then stood in silence, staring down at her feet. “Very well, then,” Mr. Bennet said, with an air of finality.

Mrs. Bennet was overjoyed. “What an excellent father you have, my dear girls.”

Darcy detected a hint of approval from his father-in-law as he nodded his head in acknowledgement of his contribution to the family. More importantly, he was struck by Elizabeth’s quiet gaze, which held more affection than he had yet witnessed. He hoped that he had pleased her.


Friday, 24 April, 1812

Darcy’s plan was to leave Hertfordshire as soon after the morning meal as propriety would allow. Elizabeth was especially morose that morning, barely touching her breakfast. Jane, likewise was pale and sullen, regarding her sister with misty eyes. Lydia was just as affected, however, Darcy suspected the reason had more to do with her being left behind. However, the cloud of gloom oppressing Longbourn was instantly lifted upon the arrival of Mr. Charles Bingley.

“Oh Mr. Bingley, how lovely to see you again!” Mrs. Bennet said.

“Welcome back to the neighbourhood, Mr. Bingley,” Mr. Bennet said, appearing more pleased to see Charles than he had been upon Darcy’s arrival.

Even Elizabeth seemed encouraged by the return of colour to Jane’s complexion.

“Thank God you are here, Charles,” Darcy said. “Without your addition to the party, I fear we would not have survived.”

This ray of sunshine was treated to a hero’s welcome and offered every delicacy in the larder; fruit pies, lemon biscuits and butter cake with plum preserves were brought forth which Charles received with the greatest aplomb. “You must give my housekeeper your recipe, Mrs. Bennet,” he said, his eyes shining with pleasure.

Now that Charles had arrived, Darcy had no doubt that Jane’s mood would undergo a considerable improvement. If only he could say the same for Elizabeth.

The travellers took their leave with promises to write with every bit of news. The roads had improved, the weather was mild and the journey passed without incident in just over two hours. Darcy was never more relieved to be home again. Kitty and Georgiana formed an instant kinship based on their mutual interest in gothic novels, which had surprised Darcy. He knew his own sister had read them but had no idea that Kitty had ever so much as opened a book, much less read one. Obviously he had much to learn about his new sisters.

Elizabeth’s good humour returned and they settled into a comfortable routine; enjoying park outings during the day, suppers with the earl, evenings at the theatre and opera, and occasional parties and assemblies. Darcy was encouraged by Richard and Perry’s frequent visits.

Even Charles Bingley was an occasional caller, when he was in Town. Much to Darcy’s relief, he even seemed to enjoy his visits, reverting to his usual smiles and amiable demeanour. “Darcy, you are welcome at Netherfield anytime,” he said after supper one evening.

“I thank you, Charles. Perhaps we may make some stay with you when we retire to Derbyshire for the summer,” Darcy said. Charles agreed that this was an excellent notion. “I am glad you have decided to go back to Hertfordshire. Netherfield suits you, as does Jane Bennet.” There could be no doubt that Jane had had a calming effect on Charles.

“Yes, I believe they do, almost as well as Pemberley and Mrs. Darcy suit you,” Charles said. Darcy reacted with surprise to this observation. “Anyone can see how well you get on together.”

“Well then, if you and Jane were to marry, we would be brothers. I hope you will have no objection.” Darcy found himself quite pleased by the prospect.

Charles had no objections at all. “Perhaps you will offer your advice to a fledgling estate manager,” he said. Darcy assured him he would be his honour to provide any assistance he required. Of course, in the future he would take care to only provide his advice when requested; at least he had learned that valuable lesson.


Friday, 15 May, 1812

Elizabeth sent a footman to summon her husband, then paced in the portrait gallery, drawing deep breaths to calm the butterflies that teased her stomach. While her sisters were busy with their lessons, she would have a moment alone with Fitzwilliam. She thought it a fitting location to have this discussion; it was the same place where he had made his vow to her and Lady Anne. On their wedding day, he had promised to restore his mother’s faith in him and earn Elizabeth’s forgiveness.

Now that so much had changed between them, she felt obliged to set things to rights but worried just how to express herself. When she heard his steps in the hall, she ceased her pacing and smoothed the folds of her skirts, attempting to appear composed even though her heart fluttered wildly in her chest.

He entered the room wearing a smile. ‘You are a vision,” he said as he strode toward her.

He was impeccably attired, as always, and especially handsome that day in Elizabeth’s estimation. She curtsied to acknowledge his compliment, then reached out to take his hand. “I have something to tell you and I hope you will give me your full attention.

“I am at your service.”

She guided him to Lady Anne’s portrait. “You made a statement here, not long ago and I am compelled to do the same. When I made my marriage vows, I was not fully conscious of what I was saying. I was under duress and, in all reality, scarcely able to refuse. My reputation and that of my sisters depended on my acceptance of the circumstances.”

As she spoke, his smile slowly faded and his expression became grim. She pressed on. “However, my feelings have undergone a material change and are quite the opposite of what they were then. I could not allow you to harbour any mistaken impressions.”

He remained silent, his eyes searching hers.

She took a step closer and held both of his hands. “I love what you have done for my sisters. Jane has never been happier. I have every reason to believe that Mr. Bingley will do whatever he can to win her regard. Mary is enjoying her lessons and has not quoted her sermon books even once. Kitty is thriving under Georgiana’s and Mrs. Annesley’s sensible guidance. Even your threat to send Lydia away to school has done more to correct her abhorrent behaviour than my parents have been able to achieve these past few years,” she said, recalling her letters from home.

A smile crept back to his face and he released a sigh of relief. “My only thought was of you.”

This brought her to the reason for summoning him to the gallery. “As for me, I regret ever saying that you were the last man I would marry. Even though my marriage did not come about as I had once hoped, as my husband, you have answered every wish of my heart. You have been thoughtful, attentive, generous, affectionate and patient; every quality I have ever hoped for.”

“It was only through your instruction, my love, that I have become as you describe. My only purpose was to show you that your reproofs had been attended to,” he said, his face gleaming with affection.

“You have made good on every promise you have made. In return, I promise you that I will obey and serve you, love and honour you, keep you in sickness and in health; and forsake all others, keeping only unto you, so long as we both shall live.” Those marriage vows held more meaning to her now than they had on her wedding day.

“Dare I hope that you return my regard?” he said, raising her hand to his lips.

“You may dare as much as you choose,” she said without hesitation.

He cradled her face in his hands and softly kissed her lips, whispering endearments and calling her ‘my fair Eliza’.

“I love you, my dearest Fitzwilliam,” she said, joyous at her first declaration.

His kisses quickly became more ardent.

Breaking away, he pressed his lips to her ear. “Shall we repair to the master’s chambers,” he said in a husky voice.

Elizabeth had needed no further coaxing and instantly agreed.


Darcy spirited his wife away to the master’s chamber. Elizabeth’s declarations of love ignited his fervour and transported him to paradise. Replete with idyllic serenity, he held his wife in his arms and savoured the warm glow suffusing her complexion. Her fine eyes inspired him to recite poetry.

“She was a Phantom of delight
When first she gleamed upon my sight;
A lovely Apparition, sent
To be a moment’s ornament.”

“You know perfectly well, you found me merely tolerable when you first saw me.” Her teasing smile spurred him on.

“Her eyes as stars of Twilight fair;
Like Twilight’s, too, her dusky hair;
But all things else about her drawn
From May-time and the cheerful Dawn.”

She kissed his chin. “My good qualities are under your protection and you are to exaggerate them as much as possible.” [i]

“A dancing Shape, an Image gay,
To haunt, to startle, and way-lay.
I saw her upon nearer view,
A Spirit, yet a Woman too!”

“Did this haunting image occur to you the first time I refused to dance with you, or the second?” she said. However, her impertinence did not dissuade him from his purpose.

“Her household motions light and free,
And steps of virgin-liberty;
A countenance in which did meet
Sweet records, promises as sweet.”

“No doubt you had that same thought when I escaped on our wedding night.”

“Must you interrupt?” he said, to which she offered a pretty pout.

“A Creature not too bright or good
For human nature’s daily food;
For transient sorrows, simple wiles,
Praise, blame, love, kisses, tears, and smiles.”

“Finally, a fair portrayal of my incivility. As I recall, I rarely spoke to you unless it was to give you pain.”

“And now I see with eye serene
The very pulse of the machine;
A Being breathing thoughtful breath,
A Traveller between life and death.”

“I fear you have indulged your imagination, Mr. Darcy.”

“Owed only to the liveliness of your own mind, Mrs. Darcy,” he said, then continued with the final verse.

“The reason firm, the temperate will,
Endurance, foresight, strength, and skill;
A perfect Woman, nobly planned,
To warn, to comfort, and command;
And yet a Spirit still, and bright
With something of angelic light.” [ii]

“You paint a very pretty picture of me when I am mostly undeserving but I shall not complain. It is far better to receive your abundant praises than to hear the unflattering truth.”

In her state of dishabille with her hair in disarray, he found nothing unappealing about her. He could only look forward to more afternoon rendezvous with her. “My beautiful, impertinent bride, where shall we go for our wedding trip?” he inquired. He would take her anywhere in the world she wanted to go.

She considered this question for a moment before giving her answer. “To Pemberley.”

As he promised, he would deny her nothing. “As you wish.”


Friday, 14 August, 1812

Elizabeth’s husband gently caressed her rounded abdomen, and she released a contented sigh. When she had first married Fitzwilliam, she never would have predicted sharing the slightest marital felicity with him, but now that she was increasing, she could not imagine feeling otherwise.

“Are you well, my love?” He had asked her that same question every day since they had made the discovery.

“Never better,” she replied, as usual.

She knew he doubted her; she had said the same even on days when she was feeling poorly, but she had borne it without objection. Today however, she had not a single cause for complaint; in fact, she was in perfect health.

The Darcy party had travelled to Derbyshire at the end of June. Elizabeth recalled the miserable trip; she had taken ill not long after they had set off from London. Never in her life had she suffered from carriage sickness, so she could only suppose that a meal at one of the coaching inns had disagreed with her. She had attempted to carry on with the journey but was weak with fatigue. She insisted that she had no need for a doctor but when she fainted, Fitzwilliam sent for a physician who delivered the happy news that she was with child. Rather, she meant to be happy but was too exhausted to do anything but sleep.

After a gruesome journey, they finally reached her new home at Pemberley. She had complained when Fitzwilliam carried her over the threshold and up the stairs to her new chambers but secretly she doubted if she could have managed it under her own power. Fortunately, Georgiana and Mrs. Reynolds had attended to everything on her behalf until she was able to recover from her exhaustion. Although she had a sentimental fondness for Hertfordshire, now that summer had peaked at Pemberley, there was nowhere else she would rather be. Fitzwilliam had been loving and kind, deferring to her on every issue concerning the household and her sisters.

Her Bennet sisters, except for Kitty, were enjoying a holiday in Bath with her parents. Fitzwilliam had made all of the arrangements and according to Jane’s letters, they were enjoying themselves remarkably well. Mama revelled in some notoriety as the mother of five beautiful daughters, two of whom had already made successful matches.

Jane was engaged to Mr. Bingley, the wedding was to be in late September. Her trousseau was being prepared by one of Bath’s preeminent modistes; Mama frequently boasted to her new friends of her thankfulness at being blessed with such a beautiful family. Mr. Bingley had taken a room in a nearby hotel and was a frequent guest of the Bennets, escorting them to assemblies, the Pump Room, and the gardens.

Padre Snowden had travelled to Hertfordshire to request Papa’s consent to court Mary. She also had moved back home to Longbourn at Papa’s insistence and was now enjoying the padre’s attentions in Bath every weekend. Both he and Colonel Fitzwilliam were frequent visitors at Darcy House and were filled with stories of their time in Bath with the Bennets.

Kitty was living at Pemberley, enjoying the freedom from her lessons. She and Georgiana had forged a friendship that pleased Elizabeth. Kitty had captured the special attentions of the vicar at Kympton; however, she and Fitzwilliam agreed that at seventeen, she was far too young to encourage a gentleman’s affections. This in no way prevented her from regarding the vicar with longing gazes and her prettiest smiles. Elizabeth was certain that, in time, the vicar would be paying a call on Longbourn to speak to her father.

Lydia, who at first had felt ill-used for being required to join the Bath party, reveled in the attentions of several young men. She was scarcely without a partner at the assemblies and had been forced to admit that Bath was not so dull after all.


Darcy had never been happier in his life. Elizabeth was carrying his child and his household flourished under her gentle care. Pemberley was now Georgiana’s home. Her affection for her new sister grew with each passing day. She flourished under Elizabeth’s guidance and was no longer the shy, retiring girl she once was. Preparations for her come-out to society began in earnest with dance lessons. As with all her studies, she excelled at every turn. However, to Darcy’s great relief, she gave no indication that she was ready to leave the comfort of her home, now that she had the sisters she had always longed for.

Cousin Anne de Bourgh, a frequent guest at Pemberley, was living in Matlock with the earl and countess. Uncle Alexander had removed her from Rosings and submitted her to the care of his personal physician. Although she enjoyed reasonably good health, she was not well enough to attend any parties but looked forward to doing so when the season resumed. Under Aunt Eleanor’s tutelage, she was preparing to take her place as the mistress of Rosings. As Darcy had once suspected, Anne refuted the idea that she sent her mother to call on him upon the occasion of his marriage to Elizabeth.

Aunt Catherine was living at Rosings with a new companion; a widow of a Navy captain who suffered no nonsense and was not apt to be led astray by the Lady’s underhanded designs. Her former susceptible companion, Mrs. Jenkinson was pensioned off and sent to live with her son. Infuriated by the degradation of living on a stringent allowance with a stranger, Aunt Catherine penned poisonous letters to Darcy, the earl and countess. However upon being threatened with Bedlam, she discontinued all correspondence with the family. Darcy’s older cousin, Robert now served as overseer to the estate and had exclusive authority over all concerns related to the upkeep of the property.

With the threat to Darcy’s future happiness finally contained, he was free to enjoy his wife’s irresistible charms. One night after the candles had been extinguished, he asked her when she first fell in love with him. Even in the darkness of his chamber, he knew by the sound of her voice that she was smiling.

“Despite my efforts to resist, I must admit that from the moment we were married, my reserves began to melt. I was resolved to loathe you forever but you paid me every courtesy, pampered me and behaved in a way that I would have thought impossible for someone who had treated me with such callous disregard,” she said, causing him pangs of conscience. Only a man out of his senses could have claimed to love a woman while being so heartless.

“The possibility of allowing you into my heart was against my will and against my reason but, ultimately, beyond my ability to prevent,” she said, interlacing her fingers with his. “I had already released my aversion to you by the time you found me at the George but it was not until Mr. Bingley accompanied us to the park that I realized that my opinion of you had vastly improved.” He recalled those early days with great fondness and was glad that she did the same.

“It was when Padre Perry came for supper that I first came to admire you. His attentions to Mary gave her more confidence than ever before. The change in her was so pronounced, I cannot help thinking that you somehow knew they would suit. But when you admonished Lydia in your own subtle way, I was irretrievably lost,” she said, snuggling into his chest. “The improvement she has undergone, by your design, has been so great that I no longer fear for her future. That you would do so much for my sisters, just to please me, left me with no other choice than to love you.”

“I did hope to bring you some happiness after I had caused you such pain,” he said, pressing kisses to her forehead.

“Yes, that memory gives me no pleasure and it is best forgotten.”

Unfortunately, he could not do the same. “You are too kind to put aside my transgression but I shall never forget it, my dear Elizabeth. Those painful recollections will forever haunt me. That I have done something to please you at one brief moment in time is not enough to absolve me of my offences against you. Your kind and generous spirit has taught me to be ever mindful of the people beyond my own circle; that my consequence should not inspire only pride but also humility; that my actions towards the people outside my influence say more about my character than I ever imagined.”

He was constantly amazed by her devotion to her family. “You may say that I have helped your sisters by showing them kindness but if not for you, I never would have done it. I owe any improvement in my character to you. To be seen in your eyes as a good man, as a man worthy of your affection, is the only purpose of my life. Seeing the world through your eyes has been my greatest education. I shall never take your good opinion for granted.” He owed her a debt of gratitude for the lessons she had taught him.

He reached for the night stand and withdrew a small pouch from the drawer. The gift he had ordered from his jeweller had arrived that day and he could wait no longer to present it to her. “I intended to give this to you upon the birth of our first child but I want you to have it now,” he said, removing the item from the velvet pouch.

“You spoil me with your presents, Fitzwilliam.”

“You give me much more in return,” he said, sliding the gold ring onto her finger. He knew that she was unable to determine the ring’s design in the darkness.

Even so, she thanked him prodigiously. “Someday it will be an heirloom for our children and grandchildren,” she said, kissing him with all the fervour of a woman violently in love.

In the morning, she would discover that his gift was a posy ring, etched with a floral design. Inside was an inscription to his beautiful wife; My Fair Eliza.

© 2018 Cassandra B. Leigh

[i] Pride and Prejudice, (Chapter 60), Jane Austen

[ii] She Was a Phantom of Delight, William Wordsworth (1803)


The Worst of Men


“Miss Bennet was the only creature who could suppose there might be any extenuating circumstances in the case, unknown to the society of Hertfordshire; her mild and stead candour always pleased for allowances, and the possibility of mistakes—but by everybody else Mr. Darcy was condemned as the worst of men.” (Pride and Prejudice, Chapter 23)

We all accept that Fitzwilliam Darcy did not start out as a romantic hero. There can be no dispute that he behaved badly while he visited Netherfield with his friends. At the Meryton Assembly, he was an entitled snob with bad manners. He kept to himself, only danced with the ladies in his party and refused all introductions. However, no one had ever had the courage to inform him of his shortcomings until Elizabeth Bennet gave him a proper set-down at the Hunsford parsonage. When she rejected his proposal, she made sure to list her complaints against him; he was arrogant, conceited, selfish and ungentlemanly.

Even when he penned his letter to Elizabeth, he still thought himself in the right and wrote it with ‘a dreadful bitterness of spirit.’ In canon, his thoughts soon turned in a proper direction and he became the hero we all love.

BUT — what if Darcy still suffered from his delusions of grandeur a bit longer? What if he was so determined to make Elizabeth his wife that he forgot his manners and did the unthinkable? What if he abducted Elizabeth from Rosings with the intention of making her his bride?

This is the inspiration for my story “Against Her Will”. Darcy thinks he is perfectly in the right and can’t understand why anyone would question his choice. Yes, he is perfectly delusional and takes a bit longer to understand that his actions were ungentlemanly and unacceptable. Unfortunately for him, his family voices their disapproval and comes to Elizabeth’s defense. He had not only injured the woman he loved, but also Jane Bennet and his own closest friend, Charles Bingley. He is forced to come to terms with his bad behavior and make amends to everyone he knows.

Are you ready for Bad Darcy?  Can you handle Bad Darcy?

Is it a romance or something darker? You decide.

Available now on Amazon: Against Her Will

Dog Lover

I have watched the 2005 version of Pride and Prejudice countless times and thought I knew every frame by heart. But when I saw this photo on Pinterest, it was the first time I noticed the little dog at Caroline Bingley’s feet.

Wait — Caroline had a dog in that movie? How did I miss that?

I went back to the movie, fast forwarded to that scene and there she was; a beautiful long-haired dachshund. That pretty little doggie didn’t appear in any other scenes, so it was only a brief cameo.

Hello Inspiration! My next JAFF had to have a little dog at Netherfield and her name was to be Petunia!

After some quick research on dogs during the Regency era, I found that it was unlikely for a dachshund to be a favored pet; they were more prevalent in Germany. In England, it more likely would have been a Yorkshire terrier, King Charles Cavalier or West Highland terrier. But since I never identified Petunia’s breed in my story, I kept my own sainted Westie/Bichon in mind as she scampered through Netherfield.

Kayla (1998 – 2013)

She made her debut in the first chapter, making friends with Darcy in the Netherfield library after he awoke from a nap. She became his defender in one of his dreams and even accompanied him on a walk with Elizabeth.

The idea and title for this story came from this Jane Austen quote: ‘Miss Bingley immediately fixed her eyes on his face, and desired he would tell her what lady had the credit of inspiring such reflections. Mr. Darcy replied with great intrepidity: “Miss Elizabeth Bennet.”’ (Pride and Prejudice, Chapter 6) “Inspiring such reflections’ became Inspired Reflections, and a story was born.

The main theme of the story was Darcy’s dreams of his favorite, Elizabeth Bennet. She was constantly in his thoughts, waking and sleeping. He finally had to admit that she had taken hold of his psyche and the story has a much quicker resolution.

The story is now published in my collection of three short stories: Inspired Reflections.

If you enjoyed it, please leave a review on Amazon.

Matchmaking Grandmothers

Cover Reveal


My first inspiration for this story came from the first Harry Potter movie, when he was at Hogwarts. In the halls and stairwells hung portraits of souls who had passed on, but those people could talk to the students and give them advice.

It seemed a perfect scenario for a Pride and Prejudice variation, where Darcy’s and Elizabeth’s sainted grandmothers could guide them through their tumultuous relationship. I imagined their portraits in the family gallery speaking directly to our favorite couple. Of course, my better judgement eventually took hold. Realizing that this was far too much of a direct rip-off of JK Rowling’s original idea, I decided to go with an internal communication instead.

I introduced the two young girls as they were both making their presentation to the queen and the story flowed naturally from there. The Heavenly Guardianship Program became the method by which the grandmothers could influence their descendants.

Of course, nothing goes smoothly for the dear ladies and they are forced to use drastic measures to help our couple realize that they were destined to be together,

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Darcy’s Big Wish


My most recent publication is a fantasy: What if Darcy made a life-altering wish?

Being a pragmatic, serious man, Darcy held no belief in fairy tales; those were only for children or muddle-headed maidens. But when he suddenly found himself in an impossible dilemma, Elizabeth Bennet was the only person he could trust.


Chapter 4

“Miss Elizabeth, are you unwell?”

Gasping with fright, Elizabeth jumped to her feet, whirled around and observed a small boy wearing green riding attire meant for a grown man.

“Why do you weep?” he asked.

“Who are you?” she inquired, swiftly wiping the tears from her face.

He bowed in a proper greeting and she curtsied. “It is I, Mr. Darcy,” he said.

She was startled by this obvious falsehood and narrowed her eyes. “You are not Mr. Darcy! You are just a boy!”

“While it is true that I appear to be a boy, I am indeed Fitzwilliam Darcy.” He swept the hair away from his eyes and stood with perfect posture, his coat tails touching the ground.

Of course, Elizabeth knew perfectly well that this young child was not Mr. Darcy but who could he be? She was sure that she knew all the young boys in the county and he was certainly not a child of the Longbourn tenants or neighbours. “Are you visiting someone in the area?” she asked.

“I am visiting Charles Bingley, as you very well know, Miss Elizabeth.” She detected a hint of annoyance in his voice.

“How do you know my name?” she inquired in confusion. “Have we been introduced?” She gazed around her for a glimpse of anyone who might have accompanied the child.

“I have known you these past few weeks,” he said, failing to mask his displeasure. “I danced with you last evening at the ball.”

She shook her head in disagreement. “I danced with no boys last evening,” she said. When his annoyance changed to exasperation, she continued in a gentler tone, though still sceptical of his claims. “It is no secret that I danced with Mr. Darcy last night, as any number of people observed us doing so,” she said.

“Perhaps but no one overheard our conversation.”

She folded her arms in front of her. “And did we converse during this dance, Mister Darcy?” she inquired.

He nodded the affirmative. “You tried to assess my character but you enjoyed little success. You said I puzzled you exceedingly. I said that I would by no means suspend any pleasure of yours,” he replied with the utmost determination, unlike any child she had ever encountered.

She frowned. “And do you know why Mr. Darcy puzzles me?” she asked.

“Does it have something to do with Mr. Wickham?”

She averted her eyes. “Among other things,” she said.

“Miss Elizabeth, I know you wish to know more of my history with Mr. Wickham and I promise to reveal the whole sordid truth, but first I beseech you to assist me!”

“If you are Mr. Darcy, why are you a boy?” She was still doubtful of his claims but his troubled countenance gave her pause. His haughty reserve had faded and shoulders drooped.

He shook his head and sat down on the fallen tree. “Honestly, I have no idea,” he said.

She sat next to him. “How may I help you?” She could not keep from feeling some sympathy for the poor boy, sitting there with his head in his hands. She noticed, too, that his feet were covered only with wool stockings and no small amount of debris.

He was silent for a moment, then looked up into her eyes. “I need help to determine how I came to be in my present state and how to correct it,” he said.

She shook her head. “First, we must get you some attire befitting your age. You look entirely out of place in those clothes.” How this was to be accomplished was a different matter; with five daughters, Longbourn would have no boys’ clothes stored away. She suddenly thought of her friend Charlotte Lucas, who had younger brothers. “Let us go to Lucas Lodge,” she said. “They are certain to have some clothes that will fit you.”

“Yes, that is an excellent suggestion!”

He grasped the horse’s reins and they made their way through the pines and over to the path between the two estates. “Is that Mr. Darcy’s horse?” she inquired.

“Yes, Bart is my horse,” the boy said.

He was a puzzlement indeed. “Are you really Mr. Fitzwilliam Darcy?” she asked.

“I am.” He held out his hand, showing her the ring on his thumb. “I have my father’s signet ring to prove it.”

“But it is too large for you,” she said. Indeed, the boy was small; a full head shorter than she was.

“Yes, it slipped off my finger during the night and I nearly lost it,” he told her with a frown. “I would never forgive myself if I lost such a cherished heirloom.”

“No indeed, you must not lose it.” She felt still quite unsure what to make of the boy’s claims, but she dearly hoped that he had not stolen the ring from Mr. Darcy.

He stopped walking to look up at her. “Do you believe me, then? Please tell me that you do, Miss Elizabeth!” he implored her.

“Tell me something that only Mr. Darcy and I would know.”

He appeared to contemplate this for a moment. “I admire a woman who improves her mind through extensive reading.”

He mouth gaped in astonishment. “Mr. Darcy!” It was true that he had made that very same comment during their discussion at Netherfield a fortnight ago. It was impossible to believe, but somehow Mr. Darcy had turned into a boy! But how?—she wondered, although she did see the resemblance; the dark hair, the intense eyes, and the proud posture.


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Pride In Meryton

Pride in Meryton ~ Three Pride and Prejudice Novelettes

  1. Pride and Tolerance

What if Elizabeth immediately objected to Darcy’s ‘tolerable’ remark on the night of the Meryton Assembly? Would Darcy realize his blunder and make amends?

  1. Meryton Revisited

What if Darcy had a Groundhog Day experience? In this story, the day of the Meryton assembly is repeated over and over until Darcy finally gets it right!

  1. Hedgerows

What if Mrs. Bennet’s worst fears came true and she and her daughters were evicted from their home? Would they be forced to live in the hedgerows? This story follows the Bennets out into the cruel world after losing their beloved Longbourn. Will our dear couple find their way to each other?

Excerpt of Pride and Tolerance below:

Chapter 1: Meryton Assembly

Elizabeth Bennet was greatly diverted by the entrance of the Netherfield party. Ever since Sir William Lucas had invited the newcomers to attend the local assembly in Meryton, word of their arrival had been much discussed in the neighbourhood and was of special interest to the ladies. That eligible young men were to be in their midst was of the greatest interest to those ladies with marriageable daughters.

Elizabeth’s mama had spoken of little else during the past fortnight and now that the event was finally underway, she was breathless with anticipation. “Oh my dear Lady Lucas! They have finally arrived! What a wonderful thing for our daughters, to be sure!” Mrs. Bennet twittered with an air of delight. The two ladies were long-time friends; Mrs. Bennet with five marriageable daughters and Lady Lucas with two.

Elizabeth attempted to ignore any attempts made on her behalf to match her to the latest newcomers to the neighbourhood; perhaps they were unsuitable, she mused. Perhaps one was too old or was a recluse. Perhaps another had rotten teeth or warts. Perhaps he had foul breath and a leer. She giggled to herself and imagined any number of maladies from which the gentlemen might suffer as the party approached. “Or worse; what if he was a simpleton?” she wondered, imagining the greatest malady of all, in her estimation.

Netherfield Park was an estate bordering Elizabeth’s home of Longbourn in Hertfordshire. Since the current owner had fallen into failing health, Netherfield had been let to Mr. Bingley, who was widely considered to be the next owner of that excellent property. He was currently leasing the property but the prevailing opinion was that he could not fail to admire the grounds and the manor house, since it was the finest estate in the area. With an estate so perfectly situated, there could be no doubt that Mr. Bingley would be the eventual owner. Elizabeth knew that her mama dearly hoped that one of her daughters would soon be the mistress of Netherfield Park.

As the party of newcomers approached, Elizabeth was finally able to observe them; they numbered only five, not the twelve that had been widely circulated. Three gentlemen and two ladies walked slowly into the assembly hall and greeted the prominent elder in the community. Sir William had been knighted by the King some years ago and was widely regarded with great esteem for his wisdom and compassion. He warmly greeted the newcomers and introduced them to his family.

Elizabeth noted that the party appeared quite stylish, wearing the latest fashions from London. The ladies were especially fashionable, though a bit aloof, appearing quite out of place in the midst of the country assembly. Elizabeth glanced down at her simple green muslin frock, which despite being one of her favourites, in no way compared to the elegant silk gowns adorning the two new ladies. The three gentlemen all appeared to be wearing expertly tailored clothes made of the finest materials.

Mr. Bingley quickly made himself known to all the principal people in the room and requested introductions to as many others as he could. He had all the appearances of a well-bred gentleman with a pleasant countenance and easy, unaffected manners. He introduced the two ladies as his sisters and the one gentleman as his brother-in-law. The other gentleman, a Mr. Darcy, was not introduced as he preferred to loiter in the back of the room, pacing to and fro in a disgruntled manner, appearing to be above company with a most forbidding, disagreeable countenance. He refused to speak to or dance with anyone outside of his own party. Mr. Darcy’s tall frame, handsome features and noble mien did nothing to turn the tide of disgust that Elizabeth harboured for the gentleman.

In contrast to his disagreeable friend, Mr. Bingley danced every dance that evening, even taking a turn about the dance floor with Elizabeth. She found him in every way agreeable and could not help but notice his particular attentions to her older sister Jane. They seemed to quite enjoy their dance together and nothing would please Elizabeth more than to see her beloved sister happily matched. She and Jane were the closest confidants and she looked forward with great anticipation to their conversation later that evening when they would discuss every aspect of the evening, including the newcomers.

Due to the lack of dance partners, Elizabeth sat out one dance with her friend, Charlotte Lucas. The two had been lifelong friends and they amused themselves by watching the dancers. She observed Mr. Bingley approach disagreeable Mr. Darcy and entreat him to join in the dancing.

“I certainly shall not. You know how I detest it, unless I am particularly acquainted with my partner. At such an assembly as this it would be insupportable. Your sisters are engaged, and there is not another woman in the room whom it would not be a punishment to me to stand up with.”

“I would not be so fastidious as you are,” cried Bingley, “for a kingdom! Upon my honour, I never met with so many pleasant girls in my life as I have this evening; and there are several of them you see uncommonly pretty.”

“You are dancing with the only handsome girl in the room,” said Mr. Darcy, looking at the eldest Miss Bennet.

“Oh! She is the most beautiful creature I ever beheld! But there is one of her sisters sitting down just behind you, who is very pretty, and I dare say very agreeable. Do let me ask my partner to introduce you.”

“Which do you mean?” and turning round, he looked for a moment at Elizabeth, till catching her eye, he withdrew his own and coldly said, “She is tolerable; but not handsome enough to tempt me; and I am in no humour at present to give consequence to young ladies who are slighted by other men. You had better return to your partner and enjoy her smiles, for you are wasting your time with me.” [i]

“No indeed,” thought Elizabeth, seething with disgust. “Simple-mindedness is not the greatest failure in a man; rudeness takes that honour.” She wanted to reprimand the horrid man for his bad manners but having received no introduction to the gentleman, it would have been improper for her to address him.

Turning to her friend, she decided on a less direct approach. “Charlotte, it is quite a shame, is it not, that all of Mr. Bingley’s acquaintances are not blessed with the same pleasing manners as that honourable gentleman?” she inquired, making sure that her question was well within Mr. Disagreeable’s hearing.

Charlotte said not a word but silently entreated her friend to refrain from giving further voice to her observations.

“Indeed, I would not have thought that such a well-bred gentleman such as Mr. Bingley would befriend someone who harboured such selfish disdain for the feelings of others,” she insisted, quite loudly, clearly annoyed at the snub. Throughout her entire life, Elizabeth had endured her mama’s endless comments about her lack of beauty but hearing it from the lips of the conceited gentleman had irritated her more than she cared to admit.

She had not yet finished her diatribe but suddenly found herself being forcibly removed from the area by her friend; Charlotte had grabbed her arm and escorted her to another corner of the room. “You will hardly recommend yourself to Mr. Bingley by insulting his friend, Eliza,” Charlotte scolded her in hushed tones.


Fitzwilliam Darcy had never been criticized in his life; as the son of a distinguished gentleman and noble gentlewoman, he had been blessed with fortunate circumstances and considerable wealth. Most people of his acquaintance regarded him with respect and reverence. He was a leading member of the ton and the master of Pemberley and extensive properties in Derbyshire. His astonishment at being admonished by a young woman in the wilds of Hertfordshire was beyond his imaginings.

His friend Charles Bingley had invited him to stay at his newly leased property. Darcy’s life had taken a considerable turn since last August and Charles had convinced him to come to Hertfordshire for a change of pace. He certainly could use a change of scenery, he agreed. August had been a particularly difficult month for him and his dear sister, Georgiana. The two siblings had been in constant company for the last three months; he could not bear to be parted from her and she needed his support and reassurance. She had suffered a devastating loss and had been inconsolable for weeks. She was nearly recovered now and under the tutelage of a new companion. He agreed to the Hertfordshire trip, knowing that London was a brief ride away. He left strict instructions with his staff that they should send word immediately if Georgiana needed him.

However, now that they were separated, his dear sister was never far from his mind. He worried constantly about her: Was she faring well? Did she need him? Was she able to concentrate on her studies? Would she be safe from unscrupulous suitors? Was Mrs. Annesley the best choice as Georgiana’s companion? Would she betray him as the previous companion had done?

These questions lingered in the back of his mind as he paced the floor. He had accepted the invitation to attend the local assembly but dancing was the furthest thing from Darcy’s mind at the moment. The welfare of his dear sister was the subject of his every thought; that and his failure in his role as her guardian. His parents were both deceased and the responsibility of raising and protecting Georgiana had fallen on his shoulders. He and his cousin, Colonel Fitzwilliam had been appointed as legal guardians but with his cousin currently in service to the King in His Majesty’s Army, the bulk of the responsibility fell to him.

Darcy was well aware of the dictates of society at events such as this; he was expected to dance with the ladies in attendance. But how could one think of dancing when haunted by such lingering doubts? Certainly dear Georgiana, who was not yet out in society, was not free to enjoy such pursuits; would she approve of his disregard for her devastation, dancing while she was recovering from an unfortunate incident?

‘Selfish disdain for the feelings of others?’ Had he really been accused of such a thing? That young woman who had been sitting nearby (he had hardly noticed her when Charles pointed her out) had uttered the insult. His only intention at the time was to let Charles know, in no uncertain terms, that he had no desire to dance again this evening. He had already stood up with both of his insufferable sisters; certainly his friend could ask no more of him. The locals had already spread the story of his fortune around the room; he knew perfectly well that the match-making mamas were scheming to introduce their daughters to him. He had endured much the same in London and he hoped that his escape to the country would have afforded him some small amount of privacy but, apparently, this was not to be the case.

And now one of the locals had insulted him. “Well, what is to be done now?” he wondered. He searched for Charles and found him otherwise enthralled with his pretty partner on the dance floor; he would be of no use at the moment, Darcy concluded. Surveying the room, his gaze fell immediately to the young woman in the green muslin gown, from whence the insult had come. Instead of finding her in ill temper, he now observed her pleasantly laughing with her friends, in the highest spirits. Her eyes had an uncommon brilliancy and her smile was luminous; she certainly enjoyed the admiration of the community, judging by their easy fellowship.

He then recalled his brief conversation with his friend; Charles had referred to her as ‘uncommonly pretty’ and he had called her ‘tolerable’; ‘not handsome enough to tempt me,’ he had said. Observing the woman more closely, he had to admit that she was quite tolerable indeed. In his effort to be released from society’s obligations, he had barely given her a passing glance before passing judgment on her. Regardless of what his opinion of her appearance may have been, it had been entirely ill-mannered to give voice to it in such a public forum. He had publicly insulted her appearance, which was unforgivable, and she had publicly insulted his manners in return.

He went in search of Sir William Lucas and requested an introduction to the young woman and her friends. Having the greatest affection for the young woman, Sir William was only too glad to oblige him and performed the introductions with reserved grandeur. Her name was Miss Elizabeth Bennet and, although she claimed to be pleased to make his acquaintance, her expression clearly showed the contrary; she offered him nothing but a proper curtsy and the expected pleasantries but no luminous smile graced her countenance. Miss Lucas, seemed to intervene on her friend’s behalf and exchanged pleasantries with him while Miss Elizabeth remained attentive but silent. It seemed that there was nothing for it but to ask her to dance; then he would be able to explain himself and beg her indulgence.

[i] Pride and Prejudice, (Chapter 3)


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To Make You Love Me

To Make You Love Me


We all know how Elizabeth Bennet reacted to the Hunsford proposal and how her life progressed in the months following. How did Darcy feel after Elizabeth rejected him and how did he transform into the leading man we all love? (Darcy’s point of view)

Jane Austen Quote: “My real purpose was to see you, and to judge, if I could, whether I might ever hope to make you love me.” (Pride and Prejudice, Chapter 60)

Below is an excerpt:

Chapter 4: Second Thoughts

After his trip to Rosings, Darcy returned to London to collect Georgiana and his servants and they made the journey to Pemberley. Georgiana immediately noticed his sullen mood and uncharacteristic silence. Try as she might, she was quite unsuccessful in all attempts to gain any information from her brother about his trip. She was quite baffled by his behavior since he had mentioned no difficulties or unpleasantness in his letters. During their journey, she frequently expressed her concern about his sullen demeanor and his hesitation to discuss the details of his visit. However, her inquiries were answered with the shortest of responses, revealing only that their aunt and two cousins were much the same as they ever were.

A week after arriving at Pemberley, still having no information about the Rosings visit, she was determined to discover the cause of her brother’s changed demeanor. “Was anyone else in company with you at Rosings?” she inquired.

“Yes, Mr. and Mrs. Collins dined frequently with us – and his cousin,” Darcy replied.

This is the first Georgiana had heard of Mr. Collins’ cousin. “Was the cousin agreeable?” she asked, hoping for additional details.

“Yes, quite agreeable,” he replied, revealing very little information.

She recognized this as her brother’s tactic to end the line of questioning. “What is his name?” she asked, determined to know more.

“The cousin is Miss Elizabeth Bennet,” he replied, hesitating for a moment. “I mentioned her in my letters,” he added.

He had mentioned Miss Elizabeth sparingly in his letters and Georgiana was pleased beyond all imaginings to hear him mention her name. “How is Miss Elizabeth? I hope she is enjoying good health,” she pressed on. She recalled his mention of Miss Elizabeth in his letters from Hertfordshire last year and was well pleased that William had continued the connection.

“Yes, she is,” he replied. She waited patiently, offering an expectant expression and he continued. “We were in company on a number of occasions. We walked in the park on most mornings and she played the pianoforte after dinner on a number of evenings.”

She brightened upon hearing this. “That is wonderful news! Why did you not tell me sooner?” she asked feeling relieved.

“Miss Elizabeth is cross with me. She accused me of harming George Wickham,” he explained.

She became instantly alarmed. “Harming him? That is impossible! Does she not know of his history?” How it was even possible that anyone could accuse her brother of harming George Wickham was beyond her comprehension.

He shook his head. “No, indeed, at first she knew only of what Wickham had told her. She believed that I am to blame for his current state of near poverty.”

She was horrified at this reply and it pained her to hear that George had deceived another woman. She was comforted when he told her that he had informed Miss Elizabeth of his past offences against the Darcys. “I am glad that you told Miss Elizabeth. It means that you have formed an attachment to her. I must confess that I had hoped for such an attachment. Everything you told me about her caused me to believe that she would be a most excellent sister!” she told him.

“I must confess that I hoped for the same but it is of no consequence,” he replied, becoming sullen once again.

“Oh, but you must not disregard your attachment, William! Did Mama not tell you that you would know when you met the woman of your dreams?” she reminded him.

“Yes Georgiana, but I am not the man of her dreams,” he explained.

“What do you mean?” she asked. He shook his head. “What has happened, William?” she asked, determined to know the reason for William’s misery.

“I offered my hand and she refused me,” he replied.

She gasped upon hearing this and grasped his hand. The reason for his melancholy was now fully revealed. “Oh dear, I am terribly sorry, William! Did she give a reason for her refusal?” she asked.

“I suppose she was displeased with my address,” he quietly replied.

She was startled by this response. “What do you mean? What method did you employ?” she asked. He looked away and was silent. “Did you offer to her on bended knee?” she asked. He shook his head. “Did you declare yourself?” she asked.

“Yes, of course! I told her that I loved her despite the expectations of my family,” he replied.

“Expectations?” she asked in confusion.

“Yes, I am expected to marry a woman with exceptional circumstances and connections, similar to my own,” he explained. “But I disregarded my family obligations in favor of a woman of inferior circumstances.”

She became alarmed. “You did not mention her inferior circumstances, did you?” she asked with trepidation.

“I saw no reason to avoid the issue,” he replied.

“But William, she must have been so….. insulted,” she whispered hesitantly, disappointment slowly creeping into her heart.

He shook his head in disagreement: “Certainly not, I was merely stating the facts,” he replied.

She could no longer hide her displeasure. “Oh William! Why must you be so severe? You can be so exasperating at times! I shall never have a sister if you persist with such behavior!” she cried and ran out of the room.


“Perhaps I could have handled it better,” Darcy thought as he paced fretfully over the carpet in his study. “When I pointed out Miss Elizabeth’s shortcomings, it was perhaps unfortunate that I had employed that particular tactic with her; in hindsight, perhaps I should have taken another tactic.”

He recalled her angry words once more.  I have bestowed my good opinion most unwillingly: Why did I withhold my good opinion? She has never done anything to deserve such an omission.

I ruined the happiness of a most beloved sister.  When someone stole the happiness of my own sister, I lashed out at the offender, just as Miss Elizabeth has lashed out at me. Am I no better than Wickham?

My arrogance, conceit, selfish disdain for the feelings of others. Am I really as arrogant as she perceives? Does she think me selfish because of the Kympton living? Because of my interference with Charles? Or is it my reserved demeanor? Did I leave an equally bad impression with everyone in Hertfordshire?

I am the last man in the world she could be prevailed upon to marry.  The last man in the world! The man who loves her and would do anything for her is the last man in the world that she would marry. How is this even possible?

Had I behaved in a more gentlemanly manner. I finally found a woman I could love, yet when I made my offer to her, I felt it necessary to point out our differences; her lack of fortune, her lack of connections, her family’s lack of propriety. A true gentleman would never have considered such degradation.

I could not have made the offer of my hand in any possible way that would have tempted her to accept me. Why did I not give my address more thought beforehand? If I had made a suitable offer, I would be looking forward to our wedding instead of steeping in misery.


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Steady to His Purpose

Steady to His Purpose

This was my first entry into JAFF. Remember that half hour Darcy and Elizabeth spent in the Netherfield library, just before the Bennet sisters returned home? What if unfounded gossip compromised Elizabeth’s reputation and they were forced to marry? Would they still have their happily-ever-after?

Below is an excerpt.

Chapter 2: Idle Chatter

Ladies maid to the butcher’s wife: “Poor Eliza Bennet was taken advantage of by that scurrilous Mr. Darcy! The poor dear!”

Butcher’s wife to the baker’s wife: “Poor Miss Lizzy had her virtue stolen by that dandy, Mr. Darcy!”

Baker’s wife to a customer, Mrs. Grace Philips: “What is to become of your dear niece?”

Baker’s wife to milliner’s wife: “Who knew that Lizzy Bennet was so fast and loose?”

Milliner’s wife to the milliner: “I always knew Miss Lizzy’s impulsive nature would get her into trouble!”

Milliner to a customer, Mrs. Long: “Mrs. Bennet never controlled those girls properly!”

Mrs. Long to the Butcher: “I shall not mourn the loss of that connection!”

Butcher to the farrier: “Mr. Darcy had his way with Lizzy Bennet right there in the library!”


After taking their leave of Mr. Wickham, the Bennet sisters walked a short distance to their Aunt’s house. Mrs. Grace Philips, the sister of Mrs. Frances Bennet, was married to Mr. Stuart Philips, an attorney by trade, who had inherited the practice from his father-in-law, the elder Mr. Gardiner. Grace Gardiner had been a lively, stunning girl with pale blue eyes and an outspoken manner. Now at the age of forty years, all efforts to hold her tongue had long since been forgotten and she considered herself a plain-spoken woman. Upon the entrance of her nieces, she rushed to embrace Elizabeth. “Oh my poor Lizzy-girl! Ruined by that rapscallion!” she cried, crushing Elizabeth into her embrace.

Elizabeth was startled by such a greeting. “What are you speaking of, Aunt?” she asked.

Aunt Grace pulled her to the side and whispered into her ear. “Well, it is all over town, my girl! That Mr. Darcy forced himself on you!” she told her niece.

Elizabeth laughed. “He did no such thing!” she advised her aunt.

“Oh, Lizzy, even if you enjoyed it, how noble of you to defend him. He is quite undeserving. No Lizzy, he must marry you!” she insisted.

Elizabeth was perplexed by her aunt’s assertions. “Marry me? What are you talking about?”

Aunt Grace pulled her down to a sofa in the corner of the room. “Were you not alone with him in the Netherfield library?” she asked.

Elizabeth thought back to that last evening that she had spent at Netherfield; Saturday he had ignored her the entire day. But yes, there was a brief period of time when it was just the two of them in the library. “Yes Aunt,” she replied.

“Then was there no chaperone?” Aunt Grace further inquired.

“No, but…,” Elizabeth began.

“There, it is true then! Now fret not, my Lizzy-girl, he may be a rapscallion but he is a rich rapscallion and you shall have many fine gowns and jewels,” her Aunt advised.

“No, Aunt! I shall have nothing of the sort! I was not compromised and I shall certainly never marry Mr. Darcy! More to the point, Mr. Darcy would never marry me!” she insisted.

Aunt Grace was unconvinced. “We shall see if your father agrees with you,” she replied.

“There has been a misunderstanding that will be set to rights. I will explain everything and make Papa understand,” Elizabeth assured her.


Later that evening when she and Jane were alone in her chamber, she was finally able to discuss the latest development in private. “What was Aunt Grace speaking of Lizzy?” Jane asked her. When Elizabeth explained their conversation, Jane reacted with astonishment: “Certainly no one believes that Mr. Darcy compromised you,” she insisted.

“The very idea is absurd,” Lizzy replied.

“Aunt Grace does love to chat with her neighbors. Perhaps one of them heard something about you and simply exaggerated the story,” Jane suggested.

“Of course it is an invented story; there is not a morsel of truth in it!” Elizabeth agreed.

“Well then, we shall not worry; all will be well,” Jane assured her sister.

Elizabeth was determined to put the whole ridiculous story behind her; the less time she spent thinking about the disagreeable man with the haunting eyes, the better she liked it. “Mr. Bingley looked quite well today, did he not?” she teased her sister. Jane agreed wholeheartedly and they diverted their attentions to a much more agreeable topic: the handsome and amiable Mr. Charles Bingley. Jane’s budding affection for the gentleman was a far better topic of conversation.


Dinner at Netherfield that evening had been a somber affair. Darcy and Bingley were morose despite Caroline and Louisa’s attempts to draw them into the conversation. The sisters had to content themselves with conversation between the two of them. After dinner, instead of joining the ladies in the drawing room, Darcy and Bingley retired to the study for the evening.

“Should we warn the Bennet sisters about Wickham?” Bingley suggested.

Darcy shook his head. “I am at a loss as to how that is to be accomplished without endangering Georgiana,” he replied with a worried brow.

Bingley nodded. “Yes, her reputation must be preserved at all costs. If there was a way to expose Wickham without implicating Georgiana, that would be the best strategy,” he suggested.

“Yes, I suppose you are correct. I should discuss it with Mr. Bennet,” Darcy gravely replied.

“Indeed, I wish no harm to come to the Bennet sisters,” Bingley said thoughtfully.

This brought a particular Bennet sister to Darcy’s mind. “That reminds me, Charles, someone in your staff is spreading gossip about Miss Elizabeth. It seems that she and I were observed in the library last week without a chaperone and the prevailing talk is that Miss Elizabeth was compromised,” he told his friend.

Bingley was startled. “Compromised? But that is absurd!” he insisted.

“As you and I are well aware, however Miss Elizabeth has been branded as ‘wanton’,” Darcy told him.

Wanton! Who told you of this?” Bingley asked with no small amount of alarm in his voice.

He recalled his promise to the young groom. “I am not at liberty to say but I suggest you interview your staff and get to the bottom of it. Miss Elizabeth may be in danger of losing her reputation,” Darcy warned.

Bingley nodded gravely. “I shall see to it directly,” he replied confidently. Darcy retired for the evening. Bingley wasted no time and immediately began to summon his servants to his study. He began by speaking to his housekeeper. “Mrs. Nicholls, has there been any talk among the staff about Miss Elizabeth Bennet?” he asked. Mrs. Nicholls was very ill at ease with this question and hesitated with great discomfort. “Please Mrs. Nicholls, I fear that Miss Elizabeth may be in grave danger and I must discover the truth,” he pleaded with her.

“Yes Sir, Mr. Bingley I have heard such talk, but only indirectly,” she replied cautiously.

“What have you heard?” he further inquired.

She wrung her hands nervously. “There may have been a brief period of time when Miss Elizabeth was unchaperoned in the library,” she replied.

He dismissed Mrs. Nicholls and called for his valet.  “Waverly, have you heard any talk among the staff regarding Miss Elizabeth Bennet?” he asked.

Waverly grimaced, clearly uncomfortable with the topic. “Yes Sir, the maid told me that Miss Elizabeth sought to force Mr. Darcy’s hand by contriving to be alone with him in the library, on Saturday last. But I told the girl I had no time for her nonsense. I take no part in gossip,” he insisted with an air of distaste.

“What maid?” Bingley inquired.

“Barbara Cyrus, the mistress’ ladies maid,” the valet replied.

He thanked the valet and dismissed him. Caroline had brought her maid with her from London; as far as Bingley could recall, the maid had been in his employ for about six months. Caroline had been through so many maids in recent years that he had thought better of this one, who had managed to stay in Caroline’s good favor. Bingley called next for a footman. “Quentin, have you heard any talk amongst the staff regarding Miss Elizabeth Bennet,” he inquired. When the footman hesitated, Bingley encouraged him to speak freely.

“Yes Sir, it was the city maid that told me that Miss Lizzy contrived to compromise Mr. Darcy. But I told her that she did no such thing! No Sir, the staff knows better than to believe the likes of that…what I mean to say Sir is that we don’t take well to idle chatter about our own local ladies who we know to be above reproach,” Quentin told his master.

Bingley next summoned a scullery maid, Marjorie who told him: “Oh that Barbara came to me spoutin’ off about our dear Miss Lizzy but I paid no heed to her, that vile creature!”

Bingley sensed a disturbing pattern. “What did she say?” he calmly inquired.

Marjorie was indignant. “Oh she made up some foolish story that Miss Lizzy forced Mr. Darcy’s hand by sendin’ her chaperone away! She even said Miss Lizzy is the most connivin’ girl she ever met but I known Miss Lizzy for years and there ain’t no finer lady than her! No Sir!” the young girl told her master.

Next Bingley summoned a groom from the stable. “It was that city maid what told me, Sir. She said that Mr. Darcy compromised Miss Lizzy in the library, Saturday last. I didn’t want t’ believe her but she said she saw ‘em with her own eyes. That he done the deed and left her without a second thought. I didn’t believe her but I heard the same story in town from the farrier,” the young groom told him, casting his eyes down to the floor.

“How would the farrier know what happened in the Netherfield library?” Bingley asked incredulously.

The boy looked up at Bingley with sad eyes. “I’m sure I don’t know, Sir, but I truly hope the scoundrel will marry Miss Lizzy; she’s a gentle born lady and she don’t deserve…”

Bingley interrupted: “No, no – no such thing has happened, I assure you but it seems that the talk cannot be quelled,” he concluded.

Finally, Bingley summoned Caroline’s maid to his study. “Barbara, as you may know, the discretion of my staff is of utmost importance to me and my sisters,” he suggested.

Barbara nodded her head enthusiastically. “Oh yes Sir, when Miss Bingley hired me she told me that I must never discuss her personal business, and I never have, Sir,” she said with a curtsy,

“Of course Caroline took measures to protect her own privacy,” Bingley thought. “Indeed,” he replied. “As you know, the Miss Bennets were recently guests in this house. I wonder what you know of them,” he inquired.

“Oh Miss Bennet is a darling girl but Miss Bingley told me about the other one,” Barbara suggested.

“Miss Elizabeth?” he prompted.

She nodded. “Miss Bingley told me how vulgar she is and how she was always making paltry attempts to win the attentions of Mr. Darcy. She told me that it should be most unfortunate for him if she were to succeed. ‘Tis shameful, if you ask me, Sir. No lady should behave in such a manner,” she insisted in a haughty tone that reminded Bingley of his sister.

Bingley dismissed the maid; he finally had the information that he had sought: the maid had repeated what she had heard from Caroline and further enhanced the story with speculation. Her vile discourse had spread throughout the town and now threatened to ruin the sister of the woman he admired. Miss Jane Bennet, with her angelic countenance and pleasing manners, had captured his attentions and he had hopes of pursuing her. He had only known her for a short time but he was certain that he had never met anyone as well matched to him in his life. She was the most beautiful creature he had ever beheld; she was modest and shy with a pleasing demeanor. Her angelic sweetness and optimism appealed to him greatly; having lived his entire life with his critical and outspoken sisters, he longed for a match with a woman closer to his own temperament and he could not imagine a more perfect woman than Miss Jane Bennet.  He had been planning and organizing a ball to be held at Netherfield for the sole purpose of dancing with his ‘angel’. For the last week he had thought of little else but holding her hand and gazing into her eyes as they danced.

But now, by his own sister’s design, Miss Elizabeth was in jeopardy, which placed Miss Bennet and her other sisters in jeopardy. He paced the floor of his study overcome with worry: “What is to be done?” he wondered.


While he was dressing for bed that evening, Darcy asked Hobbs, his valet, what he knew of Miss Elizabeth. “My impression from the local staff is that Miss Elizabeth is highly regarded in the community and is considered one of the jewels of the county,” Hobbs told his master.

Later, while reading in his chamber, Darcy found that he could not concentrate on the printed page; his thoughts lingered on Miss Elizabeth. She was indeed a precious jewel. Her lively mind, her sharp wit, her charming laugh, her pleasing smile, her sparkling eyes, her supple form; he was enchanted by her. He recalled the brief time they had spent together with fondness; without the interference of her family, her bright personality had been fully revealed. How could such a woman come from such a family?-he wondered. Where they are crass, she is tactful; where they are boisterous, she is poised; where they are silly, she is witty; where they are outlandish, she is charming. But how could he entertain thoughts of a woman with such an inadequate family? Certainly such an alliance would be disastrous!  He abandoned his book and snuffed out the candle. He resolved to think no more of the Bennets tonight; things are always more clear in the morning.


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Endeavor at Civility

Endeavor at Civility

Jane Austen Quote: “I might, perhaps, wish to be informed why, with so little endeavor at civility, I am thus rejected.” (Pride and Prejudice, Chapter 34)

What if Darcy and Elizabeth both maintained civil tempers during the Hunsford Proposal?

Here is a brief excerpt.

Chapter 5: Piece of Civility

The morning after the two gentlemen’s arrival, Mr. Collins hurried to Rosings to pay his respects and when he returned, he was accompanied by both gentlemen.

As mistress of the house, Charlotte gracefully received the gentlemen and they both paid their civilities to her. The introduction of Colonel Fitzwilliam was made to the ladies and Elizabeth was well pleased to make the acquaintance of the amiable gentleman. Mr. Darcy maintained his usual reserved demeanor; however his cousin was friendly and well at-ease, engaging the ladies and Mr. Collins in pleasant conversation. How the two gentlemen could be in any way related to each other was a mystery to Elizabeth. One was pleasant and lively; the other was silent and grave, staring at her with his usual disapproval.

At one point during the visit, Mr. Darcy broke his silence, inquiring after the health of Elizabeth’s family and after she informed him that they were enjoying the best of health, he had nothing further to say. Suspecting that the gentleman had played a role in the separation of Jane and Mr. Bingley, Elizabeth ignored the inner voice commanding her to hold her tongue and boldly offered an observation. “My eldest sister has been in London these past three months. Have you never happened to see her there?” she asked. She knew perfectly well that Darcy had not seen Jane but hoped that he would betray himself and reveal some knowledge of the separation scheme.

His response offered no such satisfaction. “I regret that I was not fortunate enough to have seen Miss Bennet in Town,” he replied with perfect civility.

Elizabeth was quite dissatisfied with this response but wisely listened to her inner voice and chose to remain silent.


Sitting in the parsonage drawing room that morning, Darcy could barely tear his eyes away from Miss Elizabeth. The long months of separation were finally over and he was exceedingly grateful to be once again in her company. She appeared just as beautiful as he remembered. She was mostly silent while the senseless parson rambled on at length about the generosity of the two gentleman who had condescended to pay a visit to his humble cottage and his unworthiness of such attentions. “Does the man have no control over the urge to spout forth such inanities?” he wondered. He gazed at Miss Elizabeth during this lengthy discourse and she seemed unaffected by his absurdities.

Richard, on the other hand, seemed vastly amused by the parson and encouraged him at every turn, inquiring about his expertise in the gardens, his opinions about the architecture of the cottage and his calling to the church.

“You confound me, Richard!” Darcy thought in exasperation while the parson recounted at length the inadequacies of his expertise and his appreciation of the notice of such a noble servant of the King. How it was that Richard could be so at ease in company with people immediately after making their acquaintance and could fall so easily into conversation with them, was a mystery to Darcy. “All these months I have hoped and waited to be in company with Miss Elizabeth again and not once did I ever consider what I might say to her,” he thought while Richard engaged the ladies in conversation, discussing their impressions of Kent, the parsonage and Rosings. “If I was more like Richard, I might inquire how she had occupied her time since our last meeting or if her family was in good health. Thus inspired he broke his silence. “Miss Elizabeth, I trust your family is in good health,” he told her, attempting to delve into the pleasant conversation.

She smiled in her inimitable fashion and answered so pleasantly that Darcy was distracted by her charms and was caught unaware by her mention of her elder sister. “Why would she divert the conversation to her sister?” he wondered. He had no desire to discuss the woman who had caused Bingley to abandon all rational thought. The visit came to an end shortly thereafter and he was forced to take his leave of her.

On their way back to Rosings, Richard suggested that they take a tour of the gardens. “So you met the charming Miss Bennet in Hertfordshire?” he asked. Darcy merely nodded his head, unwilling to divulge any further information. “She is a delight!” Richard observed. Darcy nodded evasively. “Her eyes have an uncommon vibrancy,” he suggested. Darcy nodded, keeping his eyes averted. They walked on in silence until Richard circled a small grouping of daffodils, quietly admiring them. “How long have you been in love with her?” he asked.

Darcy retained his well-practiced, reserved demeanor and offered no response.

“Come now, Darcy. I know you far too well to believe that you hold no regard for the delightful creature,” Richard insisted.

Darcy sighed in agreement; he knew it was of no use to withhold any information from Richard. He was far too accomplished at obtaining any information he wanted and would be relentless until he had the information he desired. “It is true; she is the most remarkable woman of my acquaintance,” he replied, meeting his cousin’s eyes directly.

Richard nodded thoughtfully. “However, judging from her style of dress, her circumstances are somewhat less than desirable and this has prevented you thus far from pursuing her,” he observed.

“How do you do that?” Darcy asked him.

Richard laughed with amusement. “I have always been able to read you, Darcy; however, my years in service to the King have enhanced my natural powers of observation.”

“And what else do you observe?” Darcy inquired.

“Hmmm” Richard sighed as he studied his cousin thoughtfully. “Despite your hesitation, you are determined to have her,” he observed.

Darcy nodded. “Indeed; furthermore, I cannot imagine my future happiness without Miss Elizabeth as my wife,” he admitted.

Richard nodded skeptically. “And does Miss Elizabeth share these sentiments?” he asked.

Darcy frowned. “I intend to make the best use of my time during our visit to discover the answer to that very question,” he replied.


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